Wonder, Ponder.

You don't see it, you can't even feel. You never have and I doubt that you ever will.
For years I wasted seconds of my life for the likes of you and my foolish beliefs things could get slightly better. I wanna rip my hair out and let you see the madness that you would still be blind too.
You were always a blind fool. A blind fool I tried to give my all too but even that was never enough.

Do you even wonder, ponder on what I am doing right now? Or the hell you set upon me and how it's destroyed me. I of course could never admit to this, I'd place on my mask I wore for all those years just to please your bitter shell. What a fool you were. Too foolish to even read the mask that expressed my feelings, a broken mask it was.

If only I could go back in time, which I am so gullible to wish for. I'd change my actions, the feelings and protect myself. Though I can't say I regret anything, I guess I'm just disappointed about the outcomes but I can say that I've come to realization that I have so much waiting for me. The future may be far from my reach but doesn't mean I can't make up for the mistakes I've made in my life.

But, when you do take time to wonder, ponder on what I am doing at this very moment. I'll be sure to not even give it the time of day, whether it's just a feeling I get or you suddenly pop back up into my life.

You lost out.
The light is out.
Curtains closed.

Don't Hold Your Breath

It's those small moments in your life, when you don't even know how or why somethings happen; like now. 

99 Problems

So, this year is an important year more in any case. I'm a senior, which is the best. I'm getting my life together. It may not seem important to some people but to me, it is. So I'm setting some goals for myself to keep everything exciting and in a flow.

1) Get fit - Yes, I know a lot of you said I haven't gained weight but honestly, I have. Which makes me feel so uncomfortable; not to mention my diet hasn't been the best since August of last year. Depression and stress can make you over eat big time and become sluggish, which is what my situation was but that's gonna change. Plus, it's not a bad thing to get fit, right?

• Plus I am thinking about recording good works outs, dieting and other things on here so I can help anyone else too. 

2) All A's, plus a B - Grades this year are important. Last two years, my grades could have been better and I want to do better. As a personal challenge to myself. Plus I need to be able to stay focused on everything this year. Especially school.

3) Work - Well I will be working Haunt again this year, but I do need a stable job and that is what I'm aiming for. I had a few close calls but they were let downs. So, I need to be able to bring in the money, since getting paid to scare people isn't an all year round thing!

4) Dad - I am wanting to see my dad improve a lot more, much, much more. For those who don't know, he suffered from two strokes last August (a minor and then the big one!) so he lost ability to work with the right side of his body BUT. He is able to walk, talk (somewhat) and kinda move his arm. I just want to see him do more because I know he can. I love you dad. <3

5) Friends? - I have a couple of really good friends who don't live near me, so I'm making it a goal and promise to see them all very soon, why? They are awesome plus a road trip does sound really fucking awesome. Don't you agree?

These are just the couple of things, I have much more I want to do but we can only take small baby steps right now. No need to rush things.

x

What's Cool In My School

So, due to watching the VMAs and falling onto my all time favorite songs and artists, I feel like posting my top hundred artists and songs (depending on if I can even have a favorite song for them!) and they aren't in any specific order, just my all time favorites. 

So here we go. .

1. Nirvana – Heart Shaped Box
2.  Shiny Toy Guns – Ghost Town
3. Marilyn Manson – I Don’t Like Drugs(But The Drugs Like Me)/mOBSCENE
4. AFI – Miss Murder
5. Halestorm
6. Tokio Hotel- Don’t Jump
7. Ramones –  Do You Remember Rock and Roll Radio
8. The Pretenders – Stand By You
9.  Frank Sinatra – Call Me Irresponsible
10. Guns N Roses – Sweet Child O’Mine
11. Aerosmith – Janie’s Got A Gun/I Don’t Want To Miss A Thing
12. Billy Idol – White Wedding
13. Mumford and Sons – The Cave
14. Live – I Alone
15. Tiesto
16. Cradle of Filth – Temptations
17. Jack off Jill – Strawberry Gashes
18. Alien Ant Farm – Smooth Criminal
19. TaTu – Mosaku (w/ Rammstein) / Clowns
20. Cinema Bizarre – My Obsession
21. Ayria – My Device
22. Green Day – American Idiot/Holiday
23. Blondie – Heart of Glass/Call Me
24. Blink 182 – All The Small Things
25. Combichrist – Get Your Body Beat/This Shit Will Fuck You Up
26. Angelspit – 100%
27. HIM – Vampire Heart
28. KoRn – Right Now/Freak On A Leash
29. Lady Gaga
30. LaFee – Princess
31. The Moxy – Step Down
32. Sublime – Date Rape/Santeria
33. Hugo – 99 Problems
34. Within Temptation – What Have You Done
35. The Pretty Reckless – Zombie
36. Alice Cooper – School’s Out
37.  Elvis Presley – Suspicious Minds
38. The Runaways – Cherry Bomb
39. Rob Zombie – Dragula
40. Iggy Pop – The Passenger
41. David Bowie – Heros/As The World Falls Down
42. Diana Krall – Walk On By/Bye Bye Blackbird
43. Muse – Uprising
44. Johnny Depp
45. Motley Crue – Girls, Girls, Girls
46. Oomph! – Labyrinth
47. Nightwish – The Phantom Of The Opera
48. Emilie Autumn – Marry Me
49. Misfits – Die Die My Darling
50. Elton John – Your Song
51. Toby Keith – How Do You Like Me Now?
52. Queen – Bohemian Rhapsody/Somebody To Love
53. No Doubt – Hella Good
54. Panic! At The Disco – Build God, Then We’ll Talk
55. Blaqk Audio – Bittersweet/Again, Again, and Again
56. Rise Against – Prayer of the Refugee
57. Wednesday 13 – I Walked With A Zombie
58. The Birthday Massacre – Blue/Video Kid
59. KMFDM – Megalomaniac
60. KISS – I Wanna Rock and Roll All Night
61. Nine Inch Nails – Closer
62. Gackt – Jesus
63. Natalia Kills – Mirrors
64. Metric – Gold Guns Girls
65. Valora – Extreme
66. CocoRosie – Gallows
67. Courtney Love – Mono
68. Kerli – Walking On Air/Creepshow
69. Alice in Videoland – Cut The Crap
70. Taking Back Sunday – MakeDamnSure
71. The Used – The Bird and The Worm
72. The Dredsen Dolls – Missed Me
73. VNV Nation – Further
74. The Smiths – Asleep
75. 69 Eyes – Dead Girls Are Easy
76. The Cranberries – Zombie/Linger
77. Johnny Cash – Ring Of Fire
78. ABBA – Dancing Queen/Mama Mia
79. Radiohead – Creep
80. Metallica – Enter Sandman
81. Sarah Brightman – Time To Say Goodbye/Gloomy Sunday
82. Gorillaz – Stylo/Clint Eastwood
83. Mindless Self Indulgence – Never Wanted To Dance
84. Paramore – Misery Business/Emergency
85. Daft Punk – One More Time
86. Poison – Every Rose Has It’s Thorns/
87. Simple Plan – Shut Up!/I’m Just A Kid
88. Bowling For Soup – 1985
89. The Cure – Just Like Heaven/Friday I’m In Love
90. Journey – Don’t Stop Believing
91. Cyndi Lauper – Time After Time
92. Lovex – Anyone Anymore/Turn
93. Placebo – Meds
94. Depeche Mode – Enjoy The Silence  
95. My Chemical Romance – Disenchanted
96. Skinny Puppy – Killing Game
97. Bon Jovi – Thank You For Loving Me
98. U2 – With Or Without You
99. Seether – Careless Whisper/Fake It
100. Billy Holiday – Gloomy Sunday/Bye Bye Blackbird

I am surprised I even finished this before 10:30. Just goes to show I know what I like. 

So, if you reach this far, awesome you read it all!! :] 

Morning Rambling

It's just like the things you do, an everyday thing with no real thought to why it happens or what it means? The only times you find yourself questioning things you know you shouldn't is within your dreams, but those are easily forgotten, for a good reason I suppose too. Going through your life holding back who you should be, what you could be but the society has it's expectations and we follow like an assembly line.

Yet, not everyone can experience the feeling of releasing themselves from the chains of life. Blossoming into who they have been desiring to be but only when they slept at night. It's that moment when you find yourself stepping on the small crack between reality and that alternate universe which in my eyes is seen as that place called insanity. You then are blessed with the ability to see the world for what is really being held within.

Of course, you'll be frightened of what you see but darling, that is the true reality. You've finally woken from that never ending dream.
Take your time, take it all in.

There is no rush.

Oh wait, never mind. Your just dreaming again. This moment, these words, they will mean nothing to you in the next few seconds. I wish I knew another way to save you, but I am just the voice in your head.

But, maybe this isn't a dream. Perhaps you did fall into the real world this time but you simply cannot remember. Then again, I'm just that small voice in your head that you never heard before.

Either way I know you'll come down from that place that chains you down, like your nothing more than a piece of flesh; you can be more than that, you can be the one to shows those who are higher than the two of us, show them that they can't play these games anymore. But.

There is no rush.

Surprise Surprise;

Well, for the new start of many, many postings; I think I'll do a fucking awesome tribute post. Since, well today is August 25, and well...

It's Tim Burton's Birthday. 

So why does this matter? Well this guy is a total inspiration to me. I grew up loving The Nightmare Before Christmas, being actually my first favorite movie of all time. The man is a genius at what he does and well, he is apart of who I am I guess I could say? Oh hell with it! 

Tim Burton has never stopped to be safe with anything he's done in his career. Being an artist, writer and film producer and director he has brought such a bizarre fantasy to us the little people. With movies like The Nightmare Before Christmas, Batman, Beetlejuice, Pee Wee's Big Adventure, Mars Attack!, Frankenweenie, Sweeney Todd: The Demon Barber of Fleet Street, and much more. 

Michelle Pfeiffer as CatWoman in Batman Returns

Beetlejuice starring Winona Ryder and Michael Keaton 

His art has exceeded dark, friendly expectations for some as well. 

Helena Bonham Carter And Tim Burton

Oh! Lets not forget those fabulous people he is always working with in his movies, that would be blasphemy now wouldn't it? It's no surprise to see the gorgeous, talented Johnny Depp who has been seen in plenty of movies, especially Tim Burton's. With another beautiful face, Tim Burton's own partner and mother of his children, Helena Bonham Carter who first worked with Burton in Planet Of The Apes.  He has also worked with other magnificent people like Vincent Price (Vincent, Edward Scissorhands), Danny DeVito (Batman Returns, Mars Attacks) and many more. 

Tim Burton and Johnny Depp

Well, what more can I say about this genius? Oh, yeah.

Happy Birthday Mr. Burton. (: 

<3




Also, if you want to know more if you don't already check out these links.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tim_Burton#Personal_life
http://www.timburton.com/

Guess Who?

So, it's been awhile since I have posted and mainly due to my laptop being busted ( thanks mom! ) and being out of town for quite sometime but no worries. I'm back with my various blogs but I'm gonna bump it up this year; a lot! 

Right now, I'm going to be updating and modifying my blog for the next day or so but then I will begin posting, like what, everyday? 

- Schuyler

Swear my generation is full of idiots, especially these white kids.

Been meaning to post but due to a failed computer I am put on hold.

Love Is...

In the world today, no one can really declare what love is and what love isn't. 

What we do know is that;

Love is worth the fight.

Love is a disappointment. 

Love is not a fairy tale. 

Love is a dream. 

Love is a battle.

Love is not always positive.

Love is not perfect.

Love is suicide. 

Love is hell.

Love is the most addictive drug in the world. 

We are all looking for love.

There are more things that can be said about love, but I don't suppose I should go any farther. Love comes in many shapes, sizes and forms. It can come as a total accident! Love at first sight? Is that what it should be called? Or it can be right under your nose and you won't see it until after your high school life and farther down the road. Sometimes you think it is meant to be but then ends tragically. Or if you are lucky, it will work out till those words have final meaning, 'Till death do us part.'

Either way this is my view on love in many different ways. Care not to agree? Well too bad, this is my blog remember? (:

Love at first sight. That is what girls desire, I did at one point in time until I finally realized that it was only meant to happen in the movies or fairy tales. Love at first sight is when you make eye contact with someone or bump into them 'accidently' and there is that feeling of butterflies and fireworks can be heard in the air. Sparks fly? Flowers? A movie? Goodnight kiss? All in the movies, and heads up, I will most likely say that a lot in this blog. Love at first sight is something that makes love look so pure and perfect but either way, you may experience that love at first sight feeling but in the end it won't be anymore meaningful than a puppy dog crush. I'm not saying that is how it happens but you can't be too careful when it comes to love. 

Now as I had just mentioned! Puppy dog love. The most fooling and believable love there is. In my opinion, puppy dog love is when you claim you are IN LOVE but it is nothing more than a simple crush or what you thought was love. It is the worst love you can go through. Again, it's when you are sure you are in love but the signs are clear. Now it is different for everyone. Puppy dog love can be minor love in the beginning but if you rush into it ( which mostly anyone who rushes into a relationship realizes it wasn't TRUE love ) then it all falls apart when you finally realize you either cannot stand that person, or they are just not what you first expected! 

Lustful Relationships! Now aren't those the best? I wouldn't know but from what I've heard and seen from society they are nothing to enjoy. Unless you don't mind being known as that guy or girl who dates someone just to sleep around for the hell of it then dump them. That doesn't really sound fun, not to mention all the extra creepy crawly friends you gain from those type of relationships. (; Ha. Well honestly, whether you wait to have sex after marriage or you have it with the person you are in love with. That is fine in my book. But if you just get with someone and use them for sex, or you use each other for sex, that shit just ain't right! 

Clingy Relationships. There is something I am familiar with. You would think that getting attention from your boyfriend or girlfriend is a great thing. I mean, come on girls, you can't say it isn't nice when your boyfriend/husband gives you all the attention. It's super nice, right? Of course, until you start to see how much of the attention he seems to give and have. Same go with the woman. At times there will be that one relationship where the guy or girl seems to notice just about anything and everything in your life. Which triggers some type of jealous/needy button and they have to be on your ass every damn minute. Now that kinda grew on me because I guess at some point and time you realize they just really love you but when you can't see your friends? Your called a slut for no reason? A pointless fight is unleashed and hell rises? Then you can see the problem there. That's not a hard relationship to solve but it takes time! If you really care about this person, give each other space but that doesn't mean if you give them too much space that they are going to jump on the next open boat. Not everyone is like that!

Controlling Relationships. Yikes. Those are horrid. It's that relationship where you basically loose your humanity and are a slave to the person you love. Us girls are easily prone to being controlled but not all of us. I will admit that I fell into a situation like that but of course I knew I wasn't going to be completely controlled because I have free will. Now, some may ask why do they get so controlling. There are several answers to that but here are the few that make a lot of sense. 

• They guy ( it's mainly guys who end of controlling a relationship ) grew up watching his father or a father figure become controlling, able to get his way and that would wipe the guy psychologically for the rest of his life assuming that he is to have complete control of those
• Possibly that person was hurt in many previous relationships, being cheated on, lied to, abused, etc. So they are afraid to give the next person in the relationship any kind of freedom because they fear of being hurt. 
• They are just jerks and do what they want.
• Woman, they like feeling in control. They are the type of girls who always got what they wanted at a young age. Spoiled brats I like to call them. 

A controlling relationship can be resolved but if the man or woman ever put their hands on you, I suggest you get out. ASAP. 

Abusive Relationships. Now this is also something that has been a problem in my past relationships. Now it wasn't like what you see on tv but it was just as bad as anything else. When you are a victim in an abusive relationship you need to be selfish and simply get the hell out! Or set some order back into the  relationship. It is never right for a man to hit a woman and that is the same for woman hitting men. No excuse. It causes nothing but problems and no one wins. Plus it follows with a lot of fear, regret, problems, law issues and even death. So if you love someone deeply but they are hurting you, get out of the relationship, call someone and get them help and hopefully the problem can be solved. 

Young Teen Parent Relationships. I have to say something about this one because not everyone can understand what it is for teen parents. Now I wouldn't know on a personal note but I do observe enough to see how tough that is! Now yes, they had sex and ended up having a baby. Now some parents take responsibility but some just don't really care. Or one parent will and the other won't. Either way it is a whirl wind of drama! Yet, there are some committed parents who love each other enough that they try to keep their relationship strong and take care of their baby. Yes, the hardship of having a baby while still in school causes teens so much stress and this is why some relationships don't last. 

Also it's the fact that these teens have a baby which is meant for later in the future! You guys are not mentally and emotionally prepared for it, not matter how much you believe you are. Guys will leave because they don't want to loose their freedom and be tied down by a baby and mothers do the same! This baby honestly did not ask to be brought into the world so early, so never blame the child. If you choose to do the dirty deed then take responsibility for the miracle that came along with it. Simple as that. I do know teen parents who are still together and getting married and I know of some who are done with each other and now its just another single parent taking care of a baby. 

I would go on but I want to at least get this posted before class gets out. Now, Love can hit us in many ways shapes, sizes and forms. It can also be dangerous. So, be cautious when it comes to love. If you find yourself in any of these type of relationships just try to see the signs, which I might do a blog for that if people want it. I might just post it anyways because no one really comments this shit anyways! (: 

So, no matter what type of hardship of love you've experience, just know that there is someone out there. Don't rush, enjoy life and make the best out of it!

Just a Post;

Lately, I've just been feeling really lost. Why?
A lot of personal family shit is happening. It is getting harder each day, it's draining me of life.
Even if I try to act like I'm full of life each day.

I've lost so much and haven't gained enough back, hardly anything at all.

I guess that is why I've lost the desire to post things or even live the life I have left.
I know, I sound so emo and whatever but when you go through what I am and have, then you won't question me.

In the end, I love my mom. She has always been there. <3
I love my dad. Even though he was there in solid form, he was never truly there spiritually or emotionally. <3
I love my Grandpa Tom, Grandma Judy and Granny Babs. Though your gone, I still love you. <3

Ink & Genocide

Right now, at this very fucking moment I want to throw this ugly pea colored textbook across the room and just jam out to this song, on top of these old broken desks. To let my heart and soul finally bursts from the seams of my being. The inner me is going completely mad.

This place is a prison, it's sad how a lot of what I write involves school and the education system but everything I say is true. The school system is corrupt, education is nothing but crap and the teachers are oblivious to it all. In a way that I can see it, is we the students are only being prepared for large genocide while they sit and laugh, enjoying such torment. I mean, I can't be the only to see it.

Not to mention, not everyone can live their dreams through the contents of a century old textbook. I mean, my english teacher even said not to long ago that some of her favorite writers dropped out of school and still made something of themselves. Not that I am saying dropping out is the way to go it just means that this education establishment isn't meeting it's own standards. How pathetic can that be?

I mean, I will be studying Nursing when I'm out of High School but that is my plan B! My dream is the arts. To sing, to act, to model. Whatever else you wanna call it, that is what I want to do. I want my voice to be heard by millions all over the world while I spread inspiration through television screens. I want to do the impossible, following the footsteps of the greatest but on my own path as well. I tell my mom all the time that I will be famous one day, and I will. I'm determined.

I'm following my heart.

Till then, I'm locked away in this god forsaken place till 2:20 then I go to live the life I have left for this day. Sometimes I feel like a fish in a small glass bowl, waiting for that annoying child to come bang away on the bowl. A pain in the ass!

Update;

Will post very soon, just been a little busy!!

In with the old, out with the new

Lately I've lost my taste for the music of today, which is nothing but artist bringing back electro. So I've been winding it down for the past year with my music, bringing back all my oldie favorites. Since they were basically the reasons for the music my generation today is so into.

As I sit here in my room, getting myself ready for the day. I go back on what me and my best friend have talked about when it comes to music today. Well guess what, it's gone to crap. Honestly, anyone can be a singer now since all the music world wants to see is a pretty face and a bangin' body. Forget the voice, we can electronically fix that in a jiffy! What has happened to real talent? It's being covered and pushed away by the blind society we live in.

Now I can go back, way back to the actual talent that created what you kiddies listen to today. Here are a few that might just be something new to you. Billy Holiday, The Beatles, Nirvana, David Bowie, KoRn, The Cure, Nena, Cyndi Lauper, The Kooks, Journey, U2, KISS, The Rolling Stones, Motely Crue, Bon Jovi, Duran Duran, The Beastie Boys, Madonna, Elvis Presley, Queen, Sarah Brightman, Courtney Love, so on so forth. I could name more but these are some of the best and the ones I grew up on. So enough said, okay?

But today you got people like practically all of the Disney Channel going from actors to the next pop sensation for the tweens but then try to grow up and then let their young fans go sour with them. Big examples Lindsay Lohan, Miley Cyrus, Hilary Duff. Great examples. I mean come on, you go blaming other people for your problems when its clearly your fault. Not the companies. So do some blow and smile for the paparazzi.

Then you have nothing but stars today going mainstream. Stay yourselves! Stay the way you were, the way people really fell in love for you! Not what a company makes you. Some of my biggest and all time favorite artists who haven't let the mainstream take over are Lady Gaga, Emilie Autumn, Avril Lavigne, Seether, The Gorillaz, Tokio Hotel, The Pretty Reckless, Evanescene, Marilyn Manson, Ozzy, etc. So, you can see what I'm saying? These artists have kept the same way since the beginning, yes they may have changed slightly but clearly they are still who they are. So believe when I say fuck the mainstream. If I were to ever make it far into the music industry, even if I only get so far I would stay myself. And I don't want to hear any bull crap about how 'Oh it's not their fault, it was a good change, blah blah blah' that doesn't mean shit.

I mean, listen to at least a few of the groups I listed previously. None of the ones I'm bashing. The ones I suggest. They are true blue talent and are as real as you can get. Instead your minds have been warped by the synthy electro pop, which is only coming back because apparently the system wants to taint your minds a little more. Hell I would rather you watch movies like Rocky Horror's Picture Show, Grease, Cry Baby and so on, because they have better music than most today.

Now I understand many of you might have different opinions and everything but guess what. I don't wanna hear it because this is clearly Schuyler Dawn's blog and that means that this is what I see, feel and hear. Now I'm open for comments and whatnot but don't get butt hurt just because I bashed one of your favorites. If that is what you think I did then I could go ahead and make a BASHING CELEBRITY BLOG if that makes you feel any better.

So here is first blog on my feelings for music, clearly that means there is more to come. So be waiting.

U.N.I.K.O.R.N. . .& rainbows

Unusual titles call for unusual people, but all good! So tonight I was searching for inspiration for my next blog and what so happen to pop up into my phone. A little text with inspiration written all over it, not to mention it had inspiration written in the text.

Who may I say was this spark of inspiration? Well children, I begin the magical tale of this said inspiration.

Not to long ago in the days of yester-year ( real word? now it is. ) I being only a young child in my junior high year, I ventured into a site call MyYearBook. Now I had my doubts about such a site, since it was circled around romance and little strange things, so unfamiliar to me. I searched through vast amounts of people, who seems alright but turned out sour. Until I came cross a profile so enchanting, I had felt the slaps of many fairies and garden gnomes.

Being the curious child I was, also a friendly one, I sent this strange a message. A strange called, Adrian.

After said message, it would follow with many others which contained talks of music, ducks, super awesome ducks, squirrel chasing, photo battles and so on so forth, I shall not bore you with the rest of our amazing and grand adventures. Adrian and I soon became friends, venturing our friendship farther onto MySpace, which is where we continued our reign of chaos and glory. Ah, what a magical time!

Sadly every happy tale has a sad bit to it. For awhile me and my great friend Adrian had not talked in so long, even though he had a phone. Now only some people can truly understand how hard it is not getting to talk to someone that you care about, someone being one of your best friends. So I waited awhile, getting a few messages every now and then.

Till, one gloomy Sunday. This punk goes and texts me and I jump with glee ( not literally, I hate glee ). Since then we talk almost everyday even though it may be only for a few moments. Yet every conversation is a special one because we talk about things that make complete sense to us but to everyone else, they just don't get it. & that is completely okay with us! Right? Right.

So yes, I've written a blog on one of my best friends, also because he said that a blog about him would be boring. Uh, don't think so Adrian sir. Besides, I don't think my magical tale of our friendship was boring, so ha bitch slap in the face.

Here is the latest blog, btw sorry for my overall laziness. Not my fault ( kinda )

Soon To Come, Sit Back, Relax.

Yes, I know. I'm lagging again, not my fault.
I will be posting soon, just looking for a lot of inspiration at the moment.

(:

School & The Way of Life;

This is an early morning post, barely into class right now. Already detesting it, loathing it in so many ways. I am honestly trying to figure out why am I still trying? This school, the teachers and every ignorant bastard that walk the halls have no real meaning to me. Yes I have those very few teachers that I like and know try,  and of course I have my friends, whom I could never go without. It's just all these extras, these people who don't really believe that I am going far in life.

Farther than them at least.

Teachers, they are selfish and ignorant. They are ordered to teach things that just have no real meaning in our lives. They are like mini dictators, who take advantage of the authority they are given. And it's not just the teachers, it's the adminitrastion. They take advantage of what they are given, targeting those that they have low standards on. Guess what? Those students are the ones who are probably the most intelligent, talented and whatever other great expectations they may have and because you belittle them for acting out a few times, you put them down more and more, probably more than they already have.

If you get to know your students, maybe you can see that they have a story. They have a hard life and it's not their fault for the way they are. Teachers and adminitrastion are just ignorant fools. Now of course there are students that are the same way, just acting out to be cute or acting like they are still in grade school. I mean, enjoy life but learn how to grow up too. You can't be a kid forever, you're no Peter Pan kids! Because whether you like it or not, you will age, you will get gray hairs, you will wrinkle, and you will die. It's the way of life.

Now, I hate school. I use to enjoy it but now I hate it. Many reasons but I refuse to bore you to death. So, mainly I just do my work and study so that teachers will get off my ass about it. That's some good advice for those of you who like to complain all the damn time. Because once I'm done, graduated and holding that diploma. I am going for my dreams, my goals and no one can tell me otherwise.

But, my dreams and goals will be set aside for another time. Another post. Whenever I feel the time is right. But, till then. Just learn to live life. And even if you think school is not for you, prove people wrong. School is something for everyone, just gotta find the place in school and suits you. & ignore the whiny teachers, just don't be a dummy and speak without thinking. Then you are a whiny student.

The Roommate, Review?!

Thriller, drama and horror movies have become a fascination amongst all age groups in society. From the very first being in silent film, such as The Phantom of the Opera or Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde. Except in all honesty, the past few years, any type of thriller or horror, even drama have been very doubtful to me. Though the media reels you in with a very well put together trailer, with promising action, sex and gore scenes. It's that moment that you are sitting in the comfy big red seat, popcorn in one arm and a large drink in the other. You find yourself very displeased. 

So, this past Saturday I was having a girl's night with two very good friends of mine. Victoria and Dora. We had the night planned, dinner and a movie. Well, our luck at AppleBee's was cut short when we viewed an overly packed waiting area. But don't fear! Bob Evan's was very near. After a yummy meal and laughs, we'd set off to The Legends 14 Movie Theater. 

Now the concept of The Roommate is this. College student Sara ( Minka Kelly ) finds that her new roommate Rebecca ( Leighton Meester ) has an obsession with her, which quickly turns violent. A good plot, right? Well of course what I was expecting to see, wasn't really what I got to see. The movie was filled with well known actors and actresses from shows like The Vampire Diaries, HellCats, 90210; also appearing with actors like Billy Zane and the yummy Cam Gigandet. Now I am not one to likes to give away the endings to movies or anything specific. 

Yet some insiders but no spoilers. You will most likely get chills running down your back, making you 

scared shitless about having a roommate when you leave for college. So ask questions & do a possible background check.

Just sayin'.

So honestly, the actors were great. Plot was alright. Just not a box office hit in Schuyler's world. 

It's now up to you, waste money at movies? Or get it at your local McDonald's RedBox later?

( By the way, excuse the messy paragraphs. My blogger is being a douche right now )

Studying, Movies, Kansas Weather

Well, here is the second post of my new blog! Joy to the world, right?

So, heads up with this. After this new post, I'll be posting a different one on a movie review since my Saturday night was a girls night & we went to the movies after a lovely meal. More to come on that subject though!

Currently in Kansas City, the weather is completely and utterly cold but beautiful. Now, I'm sure just about everyone in the state of Kansas is sick and tired of the home sweet home, Winter Wonderland scene. Since this is I believe the most snow we've had in a while? Can't recall, it's always something new with Kansas weather. But me, personally, I am enjoying the weather today. Even though the snow is taking advantage of my love for it. The fog outside is completely inspiring, I can't help. Reminds me of Vincent Price and Tim Burton, possibly the start of a wonderful series of poems and stories? Who wonders what will happen.

But as I engross myself in this new blog, I'm pushing studies aside because honestly, my studying is pointless to a degree. My school is corrupted and teachers just don't give a damn anymore. So why should I? Yet, in the end I always finish my projects and homework, not really caring what they think of it. I'm damn proud of what I get done. Which comes to a question for many of you; What do you think of the school system? I mean, be honest. You think it's going for the better? Going for the worst? You don't really care? I think the school board should listen to their students, not the teachers or administration. Aren't we the way of the future?

In all honesty, my weekend was fairly well. I had a nice little Saturday with my wonderful friend, Tareq, Autumn and Gerald. Great seeing them and all their weirdo glory. Then later that night, had a girl's night out with my best friend Victoria and Dora. Of course going out to eat and the movies, in the snow! Except after hours at the Legends and the foggy weather out. Seemed like a perfect setting for a dramatic horror movie. (;

I'll leave my ending here, hoping your weekends were the best as well.
& again, if you feel like I should mention something in my blogs, just let me know.
SchuylerDawn@gmail.com; Curious to see who all does read my blogs as well! (:

A New Start;

So once again I have returned! Now with a fresh, clean new start! I'm ready to blog about just anything and everything. But no I won't be like one of those 'OMG BOBBY WAZ SO HAWT TODAY! CAN U C Y I LYK THE GUY? ;)' That is a big no for me. Blogging to me is letting others know about my opinions, likes and interests. 

Also followed along with my journey to my future. No harm in that. (: 

Currently I had to remove all posts from the previous year due to personal family issues. So again, fresh new start for Schuyler Dawn. 

Well on a side note, it's once again snowing in KC! Why am I not surprised? This is insane to be honest, I think the snow is taking advantage of my love for it. I am beginning to slowly detest it; only to forgive later on! Yet I love it all the same because this just means I can get into some comfy clothes, drink tea and watch movies while my two bastards drive me mad. What more could a girl ask for right? Though it's always nicer with people around! 

I think this will be all I post today. 

A good starter, right? I think so! 

So any readers, stick around to see what I have to offer. Hell, suggest things for me to blog on! Maybe try to make a certain recipe, play a game, watch a movie, and whatever else! I'd love to try a lot of new things! 

So comment away.